Consistency in the Shadows
When Celine asked me to write something for her blog, I was a little shocked. I thought to myself out of all people, why would she ask me? But then I thought, if she asked me it is because she believes I have something worth sharing. So here I am writing about what I think might be helpful to others.
I am not an emotional person and I do not like being open and vulnerable, but I believe that our stories and testimonies are created to be able to encourage others. Before starting quarantine, I was not in the best place in life. It had been some of the hardest months in my life. I grew up in a Christian home, practically born in church. But we are all human and we all make mistakes. My mistakes had gotten me into a bad place mentally and emotionally. When I found out that we were going to start quarantine I began to have a mix of emotions. I was anxious and pensive about what was to come, which I am sure others can probably relate too. I thought so many things were going to be taken away from me and I was going to lose my sanity being locked up in the house. But no matter how bad the circumstances of life seem to be, I have always known to go back to my roots and seek what the Father (God) is speaking over my life and situation. I knew that I had to take advantage of all the time I was now going to have. We can get so caught up in life and our daily routines and completely forget about giving God at least five minutes of our time. I personally, was steering away from God instead of steering towards Him, but the great thing is, it is never too late to get back on the right track. So, when I started to feel this anxiety rise within me, I immediately felt that God was speaking to me and calling me to draw closer to Him. I decided to be obedient to that small voice and start setting apart time to read His Word and spend time in His presence.
I know it can be hard to put everything aside and read your Bible or try to speak to God. I have learned that it is in consistency where you will see results. Being consistent in reading the Bible, listening to worship music, cutting off all distractions and going into a private place to spend time with God.
Because I believed that I was unworthy of God’s love, grace, and forgiveness, it was hard for me to receive from Him. No matter how unworthy we feel, God is ALWAYS good and always speaking. The more I started to read the word, the more I started believing His truth for myself. The more I started realizing that God has promises for my life, and He wants me to start walking in them. Once I started believing God’s truth, He started revealing to me that the enemy had me believing lies for TOO LONG. Getting carried away and distracted with life is easy, but the true essence of life is found in our Heavenly Father (cheesy, I know, but it’s true). This quarantine season might be frustrating and hard, but God wants to meet you right at home in your kitchen, room, garage, backyard, right where you are. Life is more than work, school, church, friends, it is about having a relationship with the Father and living your life to the fullest in His freedom.
God many times is calling us to simply disconnect from the world and connect to Him! So, I just want to encourage you to take advantage of this time and begin to look at it as a positive season! One that you can grow from. Maybe it is easier said than done, but I choose to see this season as an invitation from God to spend time with Him. He wants to use this time to speak to you and reveal His mighty love to you!
I just want to remind you, that you are worthy and loved no matter who you are or what you have done. I hope this blessed you and encourages you to seek the Father and listen to what He is speaking over your life!
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