Longing

A lot has been on my heart lately and it’s kind of difficult to sum up into words.

All I’ve been able to describe it as is a longing. I have this longing for a shift, movement, something great. I have this longing of wanting to see God in the smallest of things yet have that sight make the largest impact.

I’m not sure if anyone else can relate. 

Life has brought its challenges this year and they will continue to come; to that I say bring it. However, it has brought so much happiness. So many positive things have occurred. Isn’t that like the earth. To have so much good yet so much bad.

When I speak of the longing in my heart I don’t just mean what many assume which is finding love. On the contrary, I know love, I have love, I am love and I give love because He gave it first. But I am talking about a longing and desire that is so deeply rooted in my soul. Whether to see the simplest glimmer calling my name or an extra agent shift in my day to day. I really don’t know what it is but I know I want it. I talk to Him about it a lot.

Some days, that longing is exciting but on others its hard. Through this longing I find myself being more intentional with my words and actions. Intentional with people and most importantly my spirit.

I know that all of this sounds very jumbled. Some of you might read this and say “I don’t get it…what’s the point of this?” Some will say “Yeah…okay.” Heck, some of y’all might feel the same way.

I’ve found that this longing is prepping me for what is to come, whatever that is. It’s scary, confusing, I don’t like it, I love it, its exciting, eventful and uneventful all at once.

But today I want to leave you with a couple of points that I have reflected on lately.

1. If it doesn’t fulfill God’s heart, it will NEVER fulfill mine.
2. I was called to love God. I am living my true calling already.
3. We are being molded constantly so its okay that seasons/friendships and life in general feel like their shifting. Let the potter work the clay.
4. Being lonely can feel alone sure. But being surrounded by the wrong people is what will truly make you feel alone/lonelier. If you are surrounded by those whose spirit brings you back to God….you were never alone to begin with.
5. Always reach a higher altitude. A pilot flying through storm clouds will never see clearly flying under a storm or through the turbulent weather. They have to reach higher ground in order to understand the storm. Fly above the storm to know where they have to go.

I pray you desire more of God today. May you allow Him to do a work and may you reside in His goodness.